On Tuesday, I had the opportunity to meet Somalian author Nuruddin Farah. I had spoken to him Monday with plans to interview him for a possible profile piece I wanted to write. He sounded willing enough, and had promised to call me when he arrived in Evanston. He didn’t. And I forgot it was Tuesday and had to rush from downtown Chicago to Evanston within an hour to make it to the event. Anyway … here’s a recap of my encounter with him:
I felt my face turn red and my eyes begin to sting with unbidden tears. I had just walked up to Nuruddin Farah, book in hand, nervous smile on my face, excited to introduce myself. Only to hear these words come from his mouth: “Don’t you know it’s unethical to film someone without their permission?”Taken aback, I immediately begin to defend myself. “Well, I was the one who spoke to you yesterday on the phone –“
“You didn’t say you’d be filming,” he interrupted, his tone harsh. I imagine this is the same voice he uses to chastise his unruly grandchildren, if he were to have any. I felt like I had just been sent to the corner.
Again I tried to explain.
“Well, I had asked her if it were okay,” I said, pointing to the community relations person of the bookstore. I was hoping her authority would save me from his wrath – I could be off punishment. Instead, almost like an older sister evading punishment herself, the lady shifts all blame on me.
She didn’t give me permission. She said it was okay only if he was okay with it. She was under the impression he gave me permission earlier.
She was new to the store, and was unsure of the legal implications of what I had done
But what had I done? It was a public event in a public store. And it was for a news story, not commercial use. And I at least had the courtesy to clear it with a store official first. As far as my meager, but still existent, professional and ethical training had taught me … I had done what I was supposed to do.
I tried to explain again. But both continued interrupting and talking over me. I was at fault. No excuses mattered. Miscommunication led to miscommunication.
“You can use the footage,” he eventually says. “And you can start your story with how I told you off.”
I thanked him and walked away. But I couldn’t help fuming – partially embarrassed, partially upset, partially just plain mad – as I thought about it all.
They had no clue how my day was before this. They didn’t know I had spent over three hours covering closing arguments of a court case. They didn’t know I thought he was speaking tomorrow and not today.
They didn’t know in thinking that, I had given my camera to someone else to use. And while I was able to procure another, they didn’t know the battery was dead, and there was no tape. They didn’t know I caught the first train I could and practically ran to the store under the weight of my laptop bag, huge purse, camera bag and camera stand.
They didn’t know how tired I was, how far I was willing to go to get this opportunity.
An opportunity I had lost. Because he thought I was unethical.
I could hear them still talking about me as I packed up. Farah continued to talk about my “unethical-ness.” The lady continued to throw me under the bus, in order to save herself. I could feel my face getting hotter, the tears getting stronger.
Eventually I made my way back to the pair, who had thankfully moved on to talking about other things.
“I won’t use the footage,” I said. “I wasn’t trying to confuse anyone or cause any misunderstanding. Or look like I was trying to mislead you.”
“No, no. Use it,” he said. “It’s alright. Just know for the future.” His voice was softer now, but still bearing the slight coldness from his voice of steel. He again states why he found it unethical and then drops the bombshell that made me feel even worse:
“I had come thirty minutes early so you could interview me. But you weren’t here.” His tone wasn’t exactly accusatory, but it wasn’t forgiving either.
Thirty minutes early? Thirty minutes early!?!? I could have gotten such a great interview in that amount of time!
I wasn’t sure who to be mad at more. Him, for not calling me back as he promised. Or myself, for not calling him when I hadn’t heard back from him. But again, I thought I had another day … and I had just spent the day at court. I wouldn’t have been there thirty minutes early, even if I had known. I guess it was meant to be.
I nodded, and said my goodbyes. My heart was as heavy as all the bags I carried with me.
The footage was now tainted, as far as I was concerned. Even with his permission, his reaction and the lady’s lack of support drained it of any value it had to me. It wasn’t going to be any good without the personal interview anyway.
While my experience with Farah was less than pleasant, he was a good speaker and a lot of others enjoyed the chance to meet and talk to him. Here’s another attendant’s take on it. He goes into a lot more detail about what Farah had to say and how the event went.